It's hard, the times that he has to see Maruki broken and sad and guilty because of him. It's unspeakably hard, and he wishes he could fix it when he knows that Maruki is the one that's supposed to do the fixing. And yet, sometimes the most difficult parts are the times like now, when he smiles and it feels just like before.
Akira inhales through his nose and tries to wipe out the taste of apple juice and ramune candy with another sip of his coffee.]
I think I'll gamble on that.
[Akira's never been good at preserving his heart, his mind, or his body. And that's exactly why he smiles back at him.
Still, he waits another moment. Lets his thumb rub against the mug handle as he lets it all sit, because he knows he's about to ruin the levity that Maruki tried to bring into the room. Somehow, their easy conversations are never easy, and their difficult conversations are never difficult. But this...
Finally, Akira meets his gaze, eyes bright and clear and staring right to the heart of him.]
When was the last time you did something for yourself, Maruki?
we're so proud of him
It's hard, the times that he has to see Maruki broken and sad and guilty because of him. It's unspeakably hard, and he wishes he could fix it when he knows that Maruki is the one that's supposed to do the fixing. And yet, sometimes the most difficult parts are the times like now, when he smiles and it feels just like before.
Akira inhales through his nose and tries to wipe out the taste of apple juice and ramune candy with another sip of his coffee.]
I think I'll gamble on that.
[Akira's never been good at preserving his heart, his mind, or his body. And that's exactly why he smiles back at him.
Still, he waits another moment. Lets his thumb rub against the mug handle as he lets it all sit, because he knows he's about to ruin the levity that Maruki tried to bring into the room. Somehow, their easy conversations are never easy, and their difficult conversations are never difficult. But this...
Finally, Akira meets his gaze, eyes bright and clear and staring right to the heart of him.]
When was the last time you did something for yourself, Maruki?